The next few months were milestone after scary milestone of victories. Every checkpoint just as important as the last. Is baby a viable pregnancy? Is baby healthy? Does baby have genetic issues? Is baby growing normally? Remember miscarriages happen usually during this period of time. What is the gender…?
Shaleia got an early genetic screening. Everything beforehand was clear and led up to this moment. The day came and the email arrived. She sat staring at her inbox, the email title still in bold, unopened.
“Jeff, what should I do?” She asked me, deeply emotional. This was our moment. This moment would determine the rest of our lives. If it was a boy, we would continue having children, if it was a girl, we knew it was Grace.
Before we decided to go about pregnancy naturally, we had a long discussion with God. We had to let go of IVF and continue our family journey in a new way. We had to let go of Grace. We had to give her to Whom she belongs. We returned to our previous dream of a large family and gave everything to God. We laid our lives down and handed them to Whom they belong.
“Open it!” I said warmly, feeling the enormous significance of this moment. Everything leading up to this point had been an extraordinary miracle. Perfect, healthy baby conceived naturally almost immediately. Pregnant, when the doctors told us she had serious fertility issues. Growing normally, measuring perfectly, healthy genetics, no issues.
It’s a girl.
We cried and we hugged each other. Our Grace is coming home.